Day 11!

I am still alcohol free!   Last night we went out to dinner again.   The whole drive there I was debating about trying moderation yet again.   My cravings were real and strong.  By the time we got to the restaurant I decided that just for tonight I would stay sober.   I ordered a soda water w lime.   My husband suggested I drink only Thursday-Saturday, no more than 2 drinks.   I played that out.   I know that by Saturday, two glasses of wine would not be enough.   Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday would be very difficult if not impossible to stay alcohol free.   I would be back in that trap, obsessing about my next drink.   More importantly I would be angry with myself and full of guilt.   I hate that feeling.   By the time we got our food a felt fine.  The craving really does go away.   I just have to ride it out.

This blog really helps.   Comments will help too!  Gives me some accountability.   Tomorrow I will list my favorite books, fiction and non fiction about alcohol dependency.  

Soberly yours,

Neinwine